if there is anyone out there who wants to talk to me about a two year long pluto/mercury transit i'm having right now, please email. i just discovered it and i really want to talk about it with someone. pluto is crossing, the crossing back, then re-crossing my natal mercury/neptune conjunction. i feel this is of dire importance. thanks. elly@elly.org

ok. everything is ok. i had to drop out of school because i didn't have time to get my schoolwork done because i had to work so much over the holidays. i was very behind in my work and didn't see any chance of catching up this term, because we are probably going to move in february.

sometimes i feel very sad and trapped by money and the need for it, is all. and i was freaking out because my need for money had destroyed my ability to do what i really wanted - be in school.

and i'm also confused and upset because it is looking like the split of the tribe is upon us and that is not what i want at all. but currently we can't find a way for all our budgets to work together in a way that allows us to be able to live together. and that makes me really really really sad and i don't know how to fix it.

but as soon as i withdrew from school i felt better, a weight lifted. and now i have time to take care of everything that has been slipping through the cracks. i also feel like a lazy failure sometimes too but there is nothing else i can do right now.

i had a fun day. and a fun last night too. cuddling around with oof a little, drinking around with oof and jefferson. big dinner in the house, which was fun despite the bad scene housemeeting beforehand. lost tribes.

a nice walk home at 4am. the city was crisp.

then today i woke up and made myself sick on coffee and hung out with ralph in his 7 person mission style flophouse. with the faded poster of prince on the door. he sleeps under the windows, which made me respect him immediately. we're working on a website together which feels GREAT.

then i rushed around caffeinated freaked out ate a burrito too fast and went downtown. met up with oofie and austie. bought megs a birthday present!! and gave it to her early.

then we went to body manipulations and i got my schnoz pierced. my piercer was a little goofy and i got a little lightheaded and we had to pause. i am getting old. i used to be such a badass. oof had to bring me OJ. i am so weak. so much for my plans for cranial implants and a tongue split.

life is humming along. money is a problem.