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16 February 2005; 11:29 PM

the muscle spasm is back

class was great tonight. the existence of god. i enjoy ccsf because you can see all the antennae - sutro tower and the row of blinking ones on the hill. blue and red.

i am thinking so hard lately. tonight is the first night in some time that i haven't had a lot to do. there is so much to consider. i've been trying to take notes. write more. think more. i love it.

yoko is round and white. sometimes when i pet her, her fur looks like snowdrifts or like pictures they show on tv of the sahara.

i have a plan about dancing.

something about henry darger is kind of the most inspiring thing in the whole world. him and the woman who jumped out the window, the woman amy likes, the woman who takes pictures of herself like an angel, it doesn't matter that you don't know who i mean because i know.

i'm getting older. i gained some weight. just a little. or didn't gain it, but it's moved around on my body. today i examined some flesh on the inside of my thigh, it had lost its previous form. i felt concerned. it's a strange idea, not being young and pretty. what will i be made of then?

health is important. exercising is a weird concept though. i wish that activity came from my life, like when i worked outdoors at omega. natural forms of moving the body - through work.

time to lay down.