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10 May 2005; 11:07 AM

the material world blows ass

guys, howcome i can't just get normal real world things done? it seems like everytime i try to take on the beaurocracies of the world, i'm shut out by circumstance. from the outside it appears to be lack of effort: i'm a "flake." but fuck, i have been so vigilantly on top of the paperwork, faxes, and phone calls necessary to lubricate my insertion into the Establishment. only to find the following obstructions:

- busy fax machines
- lost faxes
- never getting the same customer service person twice
- no record of the last time i called
- mail going to the wrong address, but it's 'against policy' to change it to the right address
- accountant out of town
- unreturned phone calls
- health insurance company doesn't know i exist
- etc etc

does this happen to everyone who is trying to wrangle the systems of the modern world? do i have bad luck? oliver says it's just that i have a bad attitude about it so i make it harder. but all this stuff just seems to have nothing to with how much effort or "positivity" i face these tasks with... i think maybe it's just this annoying for everyone and i'm just learning about that.