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27 May 2008; 03:01 AM

sitting on her head like a paraffin stove

mercury went retrograde yesterday.

today, i woke up and rode my bike in the road (as opposed to the sidewalk) for five whole blocks, all the way down florida street, past 20th and florida where there's a row of pastel houses that delight the eye, past 19th and florida where the back of cellspace is rainbow vomit graffiti, and past 18th where they're building a new housing project and the half-built frame is covered in gaudy yellow tyvek.

i didn't die as i expected i might, and when i got to the cafe i had been heading to, i read chapters of the book jarett got for me during his visit last week. in this book the main character looks upon sutro tower so much that he becomes more attuned to reality and the secret spaces in buildings. then he starts having supernatural experiences. it's basically perfect, though i haven't even half finished it yet.

i've been in a weird fog all day and sometime around 11:30pm i got in bed with all my clothes on, including my jacket, and had a series of unfortunate kafka-esque dreams. when i woke up a couple of hours later, i was all disturbed and nutso, and now i'm having tea and trying to recalibrate to reality. it's totally slow going.

last week i called my dad and he was all excited because he'd been looking at mad magazine covers online and that made me really happy. i've been missing my family more than i have in years. my mom scanned some amazing pictures of my family on my dad's side and it made me long for the south. i hope i can visit soon.

i realize it's been forever since i updated this. maybe you're here looking for actual news about my life. i honestly don't think i've done anything for a few months but work on freelance projects and sleep my odd hours and eat snacks at 4am. i really can't remember much else happening at all. sometimes i go outside in the night at look at the sky randomly, and i've seen friends intermittently too. it's been a really odd downtime and i've not really accomplished any of my "omg i'm 30!" goals, in fact, i think i completely forgot about them for a couple of months. i'm trying to get back on track with that.

i've been rather broke, not really broke but just like, not flush, and since i left my fancy ass camera phone in a cab, i've been without a camera and it's been making me pretty depressed where creation of art is concerned. it's actually making me not want to work on my various internet projects. the loss of that documentation tool has given me a sense of all creation being on hold until it can be replaced. i'm also trying to migrate all these old entries into drupal, but i have that thing where i don't want to work on my personal geek projects after working on all the other people's geek projects, so it's going slow.

in a couple of weeks i'm going to visit with xep and rob on their land on the oregon coast for 10 days and chase dogs around and sleep in the strange loft above the stairs. i'm really really really really looking forward to it. i'm taking the train to eugene, which is a deeply relaxing thought in itself: 12 hours on the train with nothing to do but read books is a vacation in itself. forced disconnection, to some degree anyway.

okay that's all.